Give them the finger they were looking for !

The world was supposed to become a more comfortable place. The motto was about accepting differences. People were supposed to express themselves more easily and the world was supposed to embrace those people with tender. I am living in a developing country and it just seems a lot to ask. In my country there are many homophobes and it just doesn't end there. The judgmental eyes rolls at many other things too. in a nutshell, being different and having a unique lifestyle is frowned upon here. 
I feel I was completely uptight so many years ago when I was a teenager. But then I started to become this open-minded person who I think I am today. I believe that everywhere in the world people become more mellow when they get older. But it doesn't work like this in my country. I have had many teenagers in my classes and I am so happy to see how the new generation is trying new things or at least is not afraid of those who r different. On the other hand, older people r hard to change. It seems to me that they tend to close their world as they r getting old like every little change is totally dangerous and threatening to their existence. They think the world is a better place with a same system of thinking and same tastes. On the contrary, they r making the world a harder place to live and the first target of discomfort is themselves actually. 

I have seen many tolerant open-minded people though ... I think I still need to be hopeful about the coming generation. don't I ?

 

Are you a good observer ?

I think people forget the fact that everything needs watching. I strongly agree with what Stephen Hawking says. He believes that nothing exists until there is an observer to watch it . I tend to take that sentence and use it for many things in my life. The most important one is relationships. 
How come you take care of your plants and water them regularly, but you let a relationship live on its own?! People need to spend quality time with each other and they have to make magical moments in their relationship. 
The world is such an exciting place if you start being playful. Playing games or watching series in each others' arms or cooking together is just adding spice to the life. It is important to keep things alive. Otherwise life would be a big cemetery of our memories and dreams buried into. 
I try to spend a lot of quality time with my partner. However, I sometimes feel maybe it's not been enough. I strongly believe that love is the only thing worth fighting for. 


When there is pleasure, why having a conflict ?

See what I'm trying to say ?

Everything is meaningless until you think about it.
The story begins there. after minutes of thinking, you see a blurry shape entering the reality of your world. I have been thinking about many things there, stuck in heavy traffic of a big city we call Tehran. I said photos r damn important. You look at them and then BANG! There is a thought sparkling in your mind. The driver said what kind of photos ? u mean like scientific ones ?
I nodded along in spite of the fact that I wasn't talking about science or anything.
I was thinking about a woman sitting next to a terrace naked lingering in thoughts. The time was fading and the world was still and the woman was sitting on the edge of her seat waiting for a magical thing to happen. I needed to remember the photo and keep believing in magic.

Am I ?

well, Albert Einstein reportedly thought of his theory of relativity while riding his bike. The theory of relativity has already been discovered, so I needed to think about something else on the bike. I was actually thinking about leaving the country I am living in behind and just go somewhere far far away from this craziness. The importance of this thought is that I have always wanted to stay here even in the hardest days and despite all limitations. This was actually the first time I was thinking of leaving. 
I may not go anywhere soon,but I am tired of many things . 
my bestie was arrested last night in the street because she was wearing a woolen kind of hat on her scarf. The police arrested her cause they believed it is a kind of getting-attraction work of art. She was humiliated and was really angry. She came here and we had dinner with our partners. We had a good laugh and she cooled down a little . 

I have stayed here all these years cause I thought the only problem was the authority. However, these days I'm reconsidering my thoughts. people r the ones who I am tired of. 
people with their judgmental eyes and their strict opinion about every single matter. 
I was riding a bike and I was thinking the only way to be happy in Iran is to live in a protective bubble you make around yourself. The one that you allow the selected people to get in and the house in which you live as u like. 

I've got my partner, my besties and my house. Am I gonna survive ?